Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Writing Exercise #1


(A Call to Punctuation)

Plotter is a field smack the central of her head. From across the way of the low riding waters, our energies lie to themselves, to the kelp, the minnows, the dead men lost at sea. Penetration in order to feel, breathing in the muddy air-waters, fire seeping from your eyes, as you attempt to swim across, to the harbour lights and self knowledge finding itself in dreams on the other side.

Dive in, don't let the whispers of fat bruised souls who have fallen back frighten you from the doing of your one will. Waterways eventually push you to sink just when you think you've cleared the halfway mile towards the shore. End shore-start more reasons to forget why you started seeing pictures at the age of five. Numbers dance in their own lifelike cast from cotillion to orgy every time. Your arms stride limp, as kale dying from heaven in the midst of a broadcast. Too terrible when the ocean catches your tears, so you can't see which way they ran to this time. If you think you're swimming through, just turn around and spot the salts trailing, its own phalanx commanded, growing up into a twirling sphinx, ready to crush any who follow you to the promised dry land deep within the coming, golden shore.

Get there, find a plan, make a man and bury yourself - the sand will do the same as the ocean. The tears will dissolve away, the great ancient machine ceases to be. Each bought formulated in number, fear...and straying arms will sink when the thing you move through doesn't recognize you. Take notice of your fools and the way they find their circumstance. Hair in eyes growing form and spinning your footsteps like an oversexed top gone wild. More than sized in your intentions, but naked in your surest experiments, slowly building stars in their wake. Disease in its best place stands as a reform. A substantiation of what memory brought it all on.

So look back (again) the tides astray in song after you. You know what they're calling for, the active dreaded parts of you, draining down the causeway until you sit up in the sand, hands gripped bloody with your better nature, looking horizon wise to the next local race.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Today's the Day it's all worth Fighting for.

Elementals suspended pry
but lizards lie
on their backs --
my mind its own seven courses
of rotation,
stains in wine.

While the sound of clinking bottles
filled to the brim in familial liquor
sit, safe at home.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

At the Foot of the Giant Dipper


***At the corner stool of the Sand Bar (near the video poker), Mission Beach (backdrop: rollercoaster), San Diego, CALI 7:12pm PST, while Misha is upstairs @ casting (Skyy) 3/9/09 (JMV bday), dressed to the Rockabilly 9's -- Bud Light (2), pen borrowed from blonde bartender. TShirt, busty, a smile.***


Dear Dad,
I'm in California with Nasha Misha. She loves you still, and we are having the best time together. I know I struggle, especially with missing you and wanting to live out in my life the greatest and truest heart of yours (most particularly love), but in my own voice.
This world is numb and silly sometimes, but I know where the fire lies, where the heart of life is. You taught me that. I will miss you - every day without you since - but I am so proud of the life you lived, right down to the imperfections and the simplest bliss. And feel your broad spirit swirling everywhere around me, our family, and the best parts you loved, Misha included. I know you look over me.
Forgive me if I am not perfect, but I promise to stay alert, grounded, and brightly tuned to the spirit of Life and its second.
We love you, I love you and this next silent cheers is to you (drinks).
You are alive as the lights are twinkling on the oceanside rollercoaster next to the darkening, warm overcast sky over my shoulder. No death ever calls; we are all together and on our own, again and again, screaming and smiling our palms to the world.
Thank you for being my father. I love you always...and U zdravlje,
Mimi